So a few days ago i was a complete mess and today I feel like I’ve never felt better. Its a good feeling, the feeling of being in tune with one's self, of knowing what you want and of feeling content. I guess everything boils down to perspective..on how you look at the world around you, how you decide to make the best of every situation. Let me tell you, i am not a very optimistic person to start with so either I m changing for the better or this is one of those climbs before the steep fall in the roller coaster of life. Whatever it is, I don’t want it to change, I have been feeling good about myself and I like it.
What brought on this change?? Don’t ask me!! Ok maybe do ask me; somehow during the last few days it actually sunk in that I am not actually in love with him, I just want him because I can’t have him. I know that’s juvenile but you can’t help what you feel right…so I changed my perspective on the situation and its been a good few days. So rare that you feel so centered in life, so content with whatever is happening with you that I thought maybe instead of just venting when I am angry or hurt or distressed I should also put down the “highs”( and not just the alcohol induced)of life.
Oh and I went shopping, so that’s always good and I am traveling for work tomorrow and then extending it with a mini vacation with him so excited about that too.
Ok time to call it a night, work tomorrow and then off to the airport!!
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